Here come the feels…
I got dumped like two weeks ago. I had sex with the prick like five days ago. So I’m definitely not ready for anything new.
Enter B- a delightful distraction. He is attractive, interesting, and far away, so nothing can really happen romantically.
We decided to be… beneficial to each other through the internets and maybe in person should the opportunity arise.
But tonight after we… benefitted I started to panic because I started to develop feelings. I think. I don’t know. I’m in a really vulnerable place which is why I wasn’t looking to date anyone but then this almost perfect guy shows up and thinks I am amazing, and also we have nothing in common besides cats (I exclusively date guys who like cats… not on purpose) (PURRRpose)
Anyways, I flipped out and fucked up the leniancy of our acquaintance and I am not fit for human consumption and you should see this boy, his body…. oh my fucking lord. And his smile. He looks like Dave fucking Franco. And I just want him like completely but I don’t know what comes next and am I a horrible person if I don’t fall in love? Am I a horrible person if I express that I won’t and then I do? How can I predict the goddamned future?
We agreed to sleep on it, because day two of our little arrangement we both had feels. But in reality I don’t know what to trust so I’m going to sleep forever and avoid because I don’t know what to do or say and now I am being just as douchey as my ex, but not as douchey as my past self.
What the fuck do I do. What. The. Fuck.
Tl;dr: Why did you even click the readmore if you weren’t going to read? Oh well, the question is- am I capable of fucking without feelings?
